Friday, February 15, 2013

Turning 33

For some reason, turning 33 really made me think about the duration of human life. It seems like just the other day I was turning 32. My children's birthdays seem to fly from one to the other. My husband and I are going on a cruise next month to celebrate our 10 year anniversary (on Carnival, nonetheless). It really does feel like the other day, and yet thinking of all the things that have happened in that decade makes me realize a lot of time has gone by. I have noticed it on my physical body as well. Even though I have probably never been more fit and healthy, I see the age spots on my face. I see the stomach that has carried two girls and will never look the way it did. I have acknowledged the fact that I will never go back to the day when I didn't know what a heart palpitation was. Sometimes when I see my young girls, I covet their youthful experience. When the best part of the day is eating a chocolate cupcake on your mom's birthday and the worst part of the day is when your tiny tinker bell snow globe breaks. That age of innocence is a brief breath of the human existence. We do grow indeed in stature, in wisdom, in heartache, in grief, and in joy. And at 33, I believe I'm sort of in the middle of it. You know you have to be somewhat old when your cake has only one candle on it. So there's no escaping time. As much as I want to freeze it and not let my girls get any bigger, I know it can't be so. The only thing we can do is embrace every moment and live in the present.

And in light of my birthday, I decided to change my blog design, add labels to ease search, and update my picture (the old pict of me was when I was 23). Hope you like the changes I made. 

5 comments:

Mrs. Aranda said...

Hey Ali, hope you're doing well!:)

Cabin Mama said...

Miss your blogs, they made me feel less alone in this. Hope you're well.

Elizabeth said...

I just found your blog, and wanted to thank you for these posts. I've lived with PVCs as well, and am comforted to see someone else has found success with symptoms dissipating with low carbs. I hope you're doing well and that you haven't posted because your symptoms are improving! Just wanted to let you know your thoughts are still touching lives.

Unknown said...

I'm a 30 year old woman who has lived with PVCs for about 8 years. Being pregnant now with my second, they have gotten much worse and it's been scaring the lights out of me. Your blog has been such a comfort. Thank you!

Nicole Fore said...

I just discovered this blog and have been reading for over an hour just soaking in how it feels to not be alone in this crazy thing we are living with. As I sit here having had PVCs for 2 straight weeks non stop averaging every 3-5 beats, I needed something like this to help my anxiety and fears. Fears of this time being different from the last times I've experienced this and that somehow they aren't benign anymore. Fears of sleeping and not waking up. Fears that my child will develop this at some point. And so many other fears. I mean I really thought I was the only one somehow because none of it makes any sense. Hopefully, there will be more blog entries someday. In the meantime, hope you and your family are well and enjoying life.